27/11/09 November 27, 2009

Happy Birthday to me finally~

I don’t know how to express this day in words since every time I have something I want to write here, I don’t have pen and paper to vocalize it, so I’m going to have to start carrying a tiny book and pen around. That was apart of my day of reflection homework anyway.

But retracing my steps for today, I just had ice cream cake, it was yummy and I’m having it for breakfast/lunch too, whichever I actually wake up to. Before that, I had ice cream and was replying to some of my birthday wishes. I wish that some of the people who told me happy birthday actually cared but it’s their time, I suppose. I realize how much birthdays mean to everyone and today was nice since I feel slightly more appreciated. I’m also JMD$5000 richer. xP

Today was a nice day, I took yesterday’s nap 3 hours later than intended so I ended up waking up at 4 AM and not doing any work at all. Some people had already told me happy birthday by then, actually. So I was slightly dreading the day since I  had a lot of stuff due, but by God’s grace, the day went smoothly. Didn’t have some of my classes so I did the other homework then.  I feel blessed and I’m just happy. I feel like I should have hugged someone.

How do I explain my joy, seriously? It’s kind of like a melancholic joy because I’m smiling but loneliness, I feel it. I need to go load up on more cake or something. Also, November’s end is coming. Like 3 more mandatory posts then back to helter skelter posting. My birthday feels like usual though. I’m glad to be alive, and I hope that God can work through my life some more. And that I can see Taemin or Kyuhyun or Dongwoon in real life. Pretty Please~

Not much today, for a birthday post too. Happy Happy Joy Joy~

26/11/09 November 26, 2009

Today went rather well. School was bearable and the day went by rather uneventful. Except that I lost my ballpoint pen, my new ballpoint pen that was new. My plan for the logos is due tomorrow and if I don’t give it in, I’m in big trouble as well as being forced to speak Patois in public, say my name and learn the Chuu~ dance. DNW.

Right now, I’m trying to type this up as fast as possible so that I can take a quick nap then do my homework. I’m seriously tired and today would’ve been a good day to actually get work done, but no. This award ceremony was today and lasted a good 3 hours so I missed a bit more than that in the time I was waiting for it to start. I can’t bother elaborate  but I do feel guilty for getting the prize for top  performer in Integrated Science 08-09. Why?, because I don’t do sciences any more. I didn’t choose any as a subject to study and there are people doing the sciences now who would be better equipped with this prize. Seriously. I’m glad for the subjects that I do though.

More later. Nap time.

25/11/09 November 25, 2009

I’m so tired. Like seriously, I slept at a rather early time yesterday and woke up early and all that but when I got home, I took a nap, and now my eyes burn.

I have to update later when I’m not doing homework. o3o

I don’t feel like writing for this any more so I’ll just say that Day of Reflection wasn’t as deep as I would’ve liked.  But I learned something. I’ve already forgotten what happened though anyway. >3<

23/11/09 & 24/11/09 November 24, 2009

In the hopes that you’ll forgive me again, I bring good news. Tomorrow is finally ‘Day of Reflection’ so I don’t have to do homework except that I’m leaving after IT so that project will have to be done tonight and some Spanish work is due whether I want to do it or not. -_-

Feeling better from Sunday, I suppose. A friend told me something very insightful so I’m glad for that, and her. I don’t have much to say right now, mostly because I have homework doing, and I feel like hiding, or something. I suppose it’s because I’m excited for tomorrow, yet really worried because it’s a new class, and I don’t know whether I can trust them truly but being how I am, I’m going to say whatever I want. I’ll need to think before I speak but that’s no good. I’ll never end up sharing that way.

Other art homework after the cut.

22/11/09 November 22, 2009

I am disappoint.  But I’d rather not talk about it right now. Both because I have work doing and I’m going to need a lot of time to write out what I feel. So I’ll get it out soon. Hopefully I won’t forget what I’m disappointed about but I doubt it, I’ll get a lot of reminders about it soon enough. For now, I wish I wasn’t the way I am sometimes. The first step is scary but honestly it’s never the first step, just the steps I have to take after. Consistency isn’t an inherent skill I have.

Where did the weekend go, where indeed?

Oh, and I think I like f(x) now, just where did that come from seriously?

21/11/09 November 21, 2009

Have so much work to do today. Intending to finish almost everything too, except for some stuff due on Thursday and Friday, that can wait for the day before.

Listening to all my songs on shuffle. I don’t remember what song it was when I started typing but currently it’s Samson by Regina Spektor. Search it if you’d like, it’s a wonderful song. I remember it was playing Bolero by TVXQ earlier and oddly enough, I was reading about them at the same time, or at least about Jaechunsu. Now it’s 心跳 by 王力宏. I might just sit here typing out every song that plays in the next half hour, mostly because I’m sitting in bed and do not want to start my homework.

Ok, got out of bed and honestly, my room is currently like a sliding puzzle with all the moving around I’ve been doing. Fire by 2NE1, my need to dance to this is so overwhelming, seriously. I got my exam schedule yesterday too, it’s so unfair, I only miss one day of school. But even then, some days I only have one exam so it’s okay, I guess.

Picture of my homework after the cut.

20/11/09 November 20, 2009

I’m tired from yesterday, this week and overall. But I’m alive, and I feel glad for that. If not because my life has been eventful enough that I should appreciate it then because there is a God. On that note, I’m going to link to some tumblrs that I’ve found recently that are helping me through this time.

• Heck Yeah Jesus
• Dear God
• F*** Yeah Happy
• Quote Book
• Daily Bible Verse
• Bible Gateway for those without a Bible on hand, I’m looking at you Shelice

And for those with a sense of humour, search The Lolcats Bible. It helped rekindle my need to read an actual Bible, and honestly Ceiling cat was calling to me. DNW Basement cat. DX

That’s all for today, I’m sleeping early-ish today.

19/11/09 November 19, 2009

“Death comes to every individual. There is an amazing democracy about death. It is not aristocracy for some of the people, but a democracy for all of the people. Kings die and beggars die; rich men and poor men die; old people die and young people die. Death comes to the innocent and it comes to the guilty. Death is the irreducible common denominator of all men. I hope you can find some consolation from Christianity’s affirmation that death is not the end. Death is not a period that ends the great sentence of life, but a comma that punctuates it to more lofty significance. Death is not a blind alley that leads the human race into a state of nothingness, but an open door which leads man into life eternal. Let this daring faith, this great invincible surmise, be your sustaining power during these trying days.”

In the memory of my sister.

17/11/09 & 18/11/09 November 18, 2009

Missed another day. Is one-tenth of November that bad though, I mean, one-thirtieth might have sounded better, but I’m okay with a tenth. Let’s just keep it there, right? Not really happening though, is it?

So, yesterday was sleeping, a dentist’s appointment and dinner out. Went to a new dentist, she was nice but it took forever because my sisters, cousin and mother (o.O) were also getting their teeth cleaned and inspected and what not. So, when I finally get home I have an hour to finish my Spanish project, though they were going to leave me within the first half hour. So that got rushed but it was group work anyway. Dinner was with cousins and a pastor and his friends from Canada. Made a friend, got home and slept.

I’m forgetting something, but I don’t know what. But for yesterday’s picture, that was my beloved shelf in another place, i.e. beside my computer table. See, my laptop had a cameo, in all it’s wonderful glory. Shiny~ And that’s a cup of tea, yes I drink tea in the middle of night, to make up for the mornings I miss. Do you see those piles of homework, they’re still there. Seriously, I still haven’t done it. That and my art homework. >_>

This isn’t really funny, but I find slight joy in this. My little sister’s crying and it’s not my fault. I’ve gotten so far from my younger years when I would taunt her, now I’m writing about it.  But really she needs to get a grip, she can think her problems are horrible when she’s older. I’m not that old but I can think my life is out of whack because I know how to fix it and am in the process of doing so and it’s my blog, srs bsns. Except I’m procrastinating a bit, but it’ll get done in the end, …or by the time I’m baptised.

300 words, yay~

16/11/09 November 16, 2009

I leave this to your interpretation till I come back and edit. So much homework. So little sleep.

And I’m going to the dentist’s. o.O Wish me luck tomorrow.